By: Sarah Morrell
Reflection—v.1 ‘my soul thirsts for you; my flesh faints for you’
One night as I am leaving the seminary library, the security guard stops me. ‘Be careful out there,’ he says. ‘Why?’ I wonder, thinking what could possibly be out on campus at 8:30 p.m. that could harm me. ‘Well, I just saw a pack of coyotes… so watch out!’ My jaw drops, and with shock, I grip my phone a little tighter than usual as I hustle my way home in the darkness. I had never heard of coyotes living in the woods of Decatur. Sometimes, I take for granted what I don’t know. As we lean into a season of remembering Jesus’ journey and steps to the cross and eventual resurrection, there is still so much I don’t know and don’t understand. As we listen to news of suffering across the world, the nation, and in our own communities, I often wonder if while our ‘souls thirst’ and our ‘flesh faints’ for God, is God truly listening? Coyotes are out there but will God protect us? I think God calls us to practice deep listening and awareness, especially in these ‘desert’ moments where we feel most at a loss and weighed down by what we lack. The psalmist tells of how ‘in the shadow of your wings, I will sing for joy.’ I believe that God has us nestled under wings of protection, and we may also be extensions of God’s wings to others by showing up and being present with each other—even if we don’t fully know what to do or say.
Prayer Provider God, help us to invite you into our thoughts and feelings as we navigate and discern our deepest desires for you, our communities, and the world.